Quick update…

Rapid-fire rundown of what has been going on lately in my life: R and I broke up last weekend. That sucks. There are more details in my previous journal. Simpli hired another full-time employee, David Alford, last week. I still need to send out the email to everyone about him. Welcome, David. 🙂

Personal life… what personal life? I dove headfirst into work, and although it seems to paying dividends in the form of more new customers (and some forthcoming updates to our websites), it hasn’t left me much “me time.” I don’t think I really want “me time” right now because it makes me depressed. So work it is.

I switched my sleeping hours around a bit. Instead of going to bed at 2AM and waking up at 10AM, I’m going to bed around midnight or 1AM and getting up around 8AM or 9AM. This actually turned out to be really nice. I work at home until around 11:30AM or so and then head into the office for lunch. I leave the office anywhere from 7PM to 9PM or 10PM or later.

I’ve been sick for the past few days, so I’ve called off most social activities. I’ve been at home, reading books (I finished the book I was borrowing from D, The Art of Loving.)

I paid off one of my credit cards (the one that decided to jack my interest rate to 23% since I paid two days late.) I cancelled the card and paid the entire thing off (yay!), but that meant I didn’t have any spending money for about a month. I’ve also lost 4 pounds in the past month. I think this is a combination of eating less (I dunno, food just isn’t that appealing when you don’t have money to buy the really good stuff) and being sick (food isn’t appealing when you’re sick either.) The good news is that I fit better into a lot of my clothes. I think I’m going to need to buy some belts, as the weight loss shows no signs of slowing down or stopping. I might drop a whole clothes size before this is over. Or not. Who knows.

How am I feeling? Eh. I try not to think about that these days. As long as I’m working, I can keep my mind off several of the nagging questions in the back of my mind. Nagging questions include “How will I ever make a real difference?” and “Why do so few people really get why I’m passionate about running my own business and my plans to make a big difference in the world?” It’s hard to be enthusiastic about something when people close to you say “Meh” about it.

Me: “Hey, I want to change the world and make it a better place, and I have plans on how I’m going to do that, like becoming a motivational speaker and writing a book!”
Other people: “Meh.”
Me: “Oh.” 🙁

So I’m just going to continue with my plan, and work my butt off, and maybe someday when I have a lot of money and am a successful best-selling author, they’ll respect me. Or not. But at least I’ll feel like I’ve accomplished something.

Back to work…