So many things have happened recently that I’m having trouble listing them all! Okay, here goes:

1) C is leaving Simpli (on good terms) to take another job. (We’ll announce this to Simpli customers soon.)
2) That job is in Santa Clara, so he’s moving out here in two weeks! Whoa! (Unexpected!)
3) So now Simpli is hiring. We’ll probably hire an intern here in San Jose to start… that will keep costs down and allow us to pay down some of the debt the company has (there’s not much debt to pay down, especially for a company Simpli’s size, but it’d be nice to have it paid off.) I’ll post a resume on craigslist here in a bit.
4) DW invited me to go to Tunisia with him in November to attend the World Summit on the Information Society. I decided to go!
5) And it looks like we might be going to Rome for a few days as part of that trip as well! YAY! So I’m looking for a travel agent to plan the whole thing. Anyone know one here in the Bay Area?
6) Another ex-bf has fallen in love with an older woman and he’s totally happy. Congratulations! You totally deserve to be happy! He’s gushing about her on IM to me right now. It’s really cute!
7) One of my friends, O, is driving his Miata out here from NYC and should be here in a couple weeks. It is weird to have the exact same car (model year, trim, colors, options, everything) as one of your best friends. I saw him in Indianapolis last weekend and had a great time.
8) I also met Jeff from Innovative Network Concepts while I was in Indiana, along with his co-worker/younger brother Cody. Jeff’s a router guru I’ve commissioned to help Simpli with our network. Jeff will become an integral part of our team in the next few months.
9) And I am leasing $20,000 worth of Cisco equipment to do our network right (with full redundancy) this time!

It’s only going to get crazier from here. The next few months (especially July) are going to be so busy! Lots of changes coming up; most of them at Simpli.

Stay tuned… the wild ride has just begun!

I’m looking for something for my parents (and heck, I’d use one too.) What I’m looking for is a Tivo-like device that connects to a TV, but has the following features:

• A DVD drive where my dad can pop in a DVD and push a single button to rip it to the built-in hard drive;
• An easy, remote-controlled Tivo-like menu where we can access stored DVDs on the built-in hard drive, or play one directly from the DVD player;
• Easy connections to a TV and sound system, much like a typical DVD player;
• Doesn’t look like a computer.

Extra-special cruncho-spectacular options would include a SD/CompactFlash/MMC/whatever-else-there-is-now reader so my mom can do a photo slideshow on the TV or transfer photos to the hard drive.

Anything out there like this? Or am I going to have to find a crack team of geeks and build this one myself? 😉

I’m back here in Indiana, visiting my parents, and already my mother refused to go to bed last night until we had a “plan” for what I wanted to do with my 4 days here. I flew back on Wednesday so I could spend Thursday (my parents’ normal day off) with my parents and spend Friday with a friend of mine I haven’t seen in a couple years, but my mother has decided to work Thursday and take Friday off instead. There was much stress last night as my mother (who wants to maximize time spent with me in 4 days) said “But we have to plan to go shopping!”

Ah, a return to my highly stressed-out childhood…just what I needed when I’m already overly-stressed with work. I think I’m becoming like my dad… “Yes, Judy, whatever you want… just don’t ask any more questions!“

I was hoping to get the hot tub in soon so I could have it for my party on June 25 (btw… party at my house on June 25! It’s a BBQ party and you’re invited if you’re reading this… send me an email or leave your email address in the comments if you need an invite.) I ordered it today, but the first delivery date they had was July 7. Ah, well, at least I’ll have it in time for my next next party. 😀

Remember that blog entry I wrote a couple weeks ago (titled “I Will Win”?) In it, I said I’d made the decision to not be depressed any more.

Amazingly, it worked.

Bad things still happen. I still cry. I still get angry. But the depression that was hanging over my head on a daily basis has disappeared.

Of course, you are probably asking “How did you do it?” I am still mulling that over myself. I found that there were a few things I needed to do to stop myself from being depressed.

#1, realize that there are people out there who love me. From those of you who write comments in this blog (I read them all) to those of you who call and make sure I’m okay, there are a lot of people out there who really would care if something happened to me.

#2 (and this was the huge one) realize it was okay to be happy. I know this may sound strange to some of you, but something in my brain was seriously telling me “You should be depressed.” My normal response to it was “Why?” This, of course, evoked a flood of misery as it explained to me why my life was a horrible failure.

I figured out that the right response to this was not “Why?”, but “No, I shouldn’t. Shut up.” And it worked! The thing actually listened to me and shut up! I still hear it every once in a while; it’s there, reminding me that I should be depressed. But now I simply ignore it. I have regained the power and control in my mind, and now I am a lot happier.

#3 (and this one really works, too; try it sometime!) My friend Jan had me buy this book called Blink. It’s a fascinating book and worth the read anyway, but the best part was where the author revealed that a study showed that smiling or laughing on the outside (even if you have nothing to smile or laugh about) is just as effective as actually having something to smile or laugh about. That is, it produces the same “happy hormones” that a true laugh does. This one works amazingly well. Sometimes I just smile to myself and I feel myself getting happier.

The final step is to get myself out of relationships and situations that make me unhappy. While this is a longer, more involved process, I can now recognize what those situations are and who they involve, and I will continue to distance myself from them. At the same time, I’m forming closer bonds with my friends who truly do make me happy and make me love life.

I am surprised (and somewhat amazed) that all of this depression hanging over my head, that at times seemed so large that it would be impossible to deal with, was really the result of the tiny voice in my head saying “You should be depressed! You have so much to be depressed about!” It’s even hard to write about, because as I write about it, I feel it there, itching for me to ask it “Why?” But I refuse. And I smile… because, in the grand scheme of things, my life is going pretty well, and I want to keep it going that way.

🙂

EDIT: I also wanted to add that it’s worth remembering that no matter how good or bad your life is, it’s always your choice to be depressed or happy. This is an important realization as well. You can blame your unhappiness on the outside world and the many times it’s f*cked you over, or you can realize that everyone else wades through piles of crap as well and that you’re going to make the best of it. The second choice is the only one that will make you happy in the long run.